Realisation

I have come to realize thy my korean skills are not up to date. Don’t get me wrong this is not a pity party. I am just stating facts. I do know my grammar and how to make sentences and I am able to speak aswell rather okay whenever I am in the country. What I am lacking however is the knowledge of the language. The way to speak, so to speak. I am at that point where I can write a text that is grammatically correct but it does not really sound korean because I dont really know how koreans speak. What words are more appropriate than others in a specific sentence. I find it sad since I have worked so hard getting this far only to realize that I have so much more left to go and I wonder how it will be. People around me seem to have been able to learn that.

But with realisation also comes knowledge. Now I know what is lacking and I can focus energy to get that.. It is not all bad. I just need some time to get over the fact that I’m still not good and then I will be able to get busy working on my korean.

It just sucks big time to be the worst in class….again